A lot has been going on. I haven’t written in a while because I am someone who only likes to write when I have something to say. I hope that all of you are doing well and staying safe. If you need to talk make sure you email me firstname.lastname@example.org
As an introvert I was doing well with the beginning of Covoid-19. I have never needed to be near people. I am friendly and I have a lot of people around me at times, but I don’t need them to be. The older that I grow, the more that I don’t like to have people with negative energy around me. In the beginning it was so much fun to only be around and speak to people that I want to be around and speak to. Dealing with people that I don’t want to deal with takes a lot out of me
Now I am starting to see the downside to being introverted during the pandemic. I enjoy being alone so much, that I don’t want introversion to become a serious case of Social Anxiety. When I think about dealing with other people in the outside world it suddenly feels like such a big ordeal. It is not good to have to talk yourself into regular daily interaction.
I hate calling customer service. I hate ordering. I only wish to talk to people that I know and like.
Even being introverted there are people that I would like to see and can’t see. Introversion doesn’t mean that you don’t want to see people that you love. It was ok in the beginning, but I can’t see my loved ones. I can’t see my mother who has memory loss. I am lucky if I get to yell “Hi Mommy” through a window screen. She is forgetting how to use the phone, so it’s almost no contact between my mother and I.
I don’t want her thinking that I am not seeing her because I have forgotten about her. Due to her condition, I am not sure what she understands about what is happening and what she doesn’t understand. It is very difficult to leave someone lonely at this stage in their condition.
I also can’t see my boyfriend who lives in another country. The travel ban and the slow processing of passports has pretty much made it impossible for some people in long distance relationships to connect. We are always in contact, but it is not the same as seeing a person.
I don’t mind seeing or not seeing anyone else, but I would like to see my mother and my boyfriend. I have been staying positive by praying and meditating. I am also a big believe that “The Universe is working for me and not against me” as Dr. Michael Beckwith states. I look back in times in my life where things happened that some would perceive as negative and I realize how these things have come to shape the future.
This is why we count everything as good. It is out of respect. The same way that you may not like what a parent does but you don’t disrespect them is the same way that you may not like your situation, but you always show reverence for The Most High and the suffering that will produce great character. I can say for myself I would not be who I am if it weren’t for the sufferings that have given me the ability to persevere.
It is because I believe that all things work together for my good I am making it through. There are some people in this world who would not have been able to make it if it weren’t for the stimulus or the extra unemployment that they have received. Some people went into this year not knowing how they were going to go on and it has seemed as though this is happening just for their betterment.
There are other people who have lost jobs. I believe that their next opportunity will be better than their last. Sometimes we get so complacent with our lives that if something big didn’t happen and cause a rift it wouldn’t have pushed us to move out of our comfort zones and toward a a greater ideal.
People have lost loved ones. Death never seems right, but someone out there is out of misery and at peace. Not everything will be pleasant. Many things will be hard, but when we know The Universe is for us then we know that there is some good coming.
As for me, I say the pandemic has made my relationships stronger. I value those I miss even more than I did originally. When I am able to see them I will have so much gratitude for the time and the opportunity.
If you are struggling with your mental health during this time, talk to a professional. If you are not struggling during this time make sure you take the time out to check on your loved ones and make sure that they are ok.